I can’t believe I’ve actually got to write this. I never thought I would ever be well enough to teach. The past month has been a huge journey, I honestly don’t even recognize myself anymore.
Things I never could have done before, I can now do (if not perfectly). Teaching a class on my own, speaking to teachers, parents and pupils, without anxiety, it’s amazing.
Even eating lunch on my own at a table surrounded by pupils (we eat together) would have terrified me, but now I do it and I actually eat.
In high school, a boy told me I “eat disgusting” which led to me not eating in school for the next 6 years. That and being told I’d put on “puppy fat” led to anorexia, which I have struggled with ever since; although since my last 2 months of pregnancy I have managed to eat really well without any relapse, so let’s hope it carries on.
I had an incredibly tough day today and I’m really wondering if I am cut out for this so I thought I would write a pro and con list.
- Good money
- Don’t have to take work home
- Get to teach all subjects
- When a lesson goes well it’s so rewarding
- Make friends with other substitutes
- It’s helping me to learn Swedish
- Sometimes shifts are few and far between
- No contract or security
- Both pupils and some teachers show less respect to substitutes
- Lesson plans you are given can be terrible which gives you no hope with getting the class to do work
- Have to teach things I have no clue about – especially lessons in Swedish
- It’s hard to develop a good working relationship with the pupils as you aren’t often teaching them
- Some of the behavior is incredibly hard to deal with
If you have any experience teaching pleaaaase tell me your magical tips and advice.